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I know I have been out of touch and not really updating anything, my blog or twitter. I’ve just been really stressed and not sure what way I’m going or what way I’ve been. As it turns out I’ve had a good reason to stress over the job front anyway.

I’ve had my suspicions that they would be closing our composing site for a while. The books were shrinking at a rapid rate and we were working fewer and fewer hours each week. That didn’t prepare me at all for what happened.

On Monday we found out that the whole company, Yes, you heard me right, THE WHOLE COMPANY was getting the axe. They were shutting down the publishing part of the business and concentrating on the .com part. That will put a ton of people out of work, including me. After nearly eight years I’m getting the axe. I know that I complained like hell about the politics and petty bull shit of this place, but this was the first job I got in design and I had worked myself into a nice comfortable place, free of most of the stress that working offers.

Now I have to move on, into the unknown and find my place. The biggest issue is to determine what I want to do with the rest of my life. I’m not young anymore, and the prospect of just excepting any job just to have money coming in makes me cringe, but I have to keep my family afloat. That is the most important part that my family can enjoy life as they have it, and not want for anything.

Geez, I just don’t know what the hell I’m going to do. It is so new that I am still numb from it and I’ve been escaping from it the past two days. I guess I just have to face it and move on, and pray that my life will get better. It will at least allow me to get out of this rut that I’m in.

Take Out the Trash from the album “The Else” by They Might Be Giants
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It would seem that due to my sickness over the weekend I will not be doing NaNoWriMo this year. I hope to try and do some writing and to go to a few of the write ins and write more than I have been in a long time. I just think with all the stuff going on in my life and my general health issues that I can’t pace myself to actively complete NaNoWriMo this year. I’m sorry to all my friends if I am letting you down, I know that I am letting myself down. There is always next year.

Empty Spaces from the album “The Wall” by Pink Floyd

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Just a post to let you all know that I have updated My Notes with a new theme and also to say that by popular demand I am going to do the vampire story for NaNoWriMo.

Thick As a Brick (Part 1) from the album “Thick As a Brick” by Jethro Tull

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Ok I joined a gym on friday last week. My wife joined with me to make it a family/relationship builder if we work out together. We met with a trainer on Tuesday and the workout went well until I nearly passed out. I have this habit of remembering what I was capable of doing, and thinking I can still do that like 10 years later. I pushed my body and not it is in full revolt. I didn’t listen to it when it was screaming “Stop this now you idiot!” and now it has totally gone on strike. In fact I think if my legs could they would succeed from my body and form their own sovereign nation. I know it is a good thing to get in better shape and be healthier, but why does doing things that are good for you have to hurt so much?

On to better things, and a healthier future, and hopefully far less pain than I have now.

Get in Line from the album “Disc One: All Their Greatest Hits 1991-2001″ by Barenaked Ladies

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Life has done it to me again, and thrown a monkey wrench into my plans. I have been derailed, at least for the past week on my plans of finishing my webcomic Thoughts of a Simple Man… I have had to deal with my ineptitude on my wacom, but mostly it has been family. Coming home from vacation and getting the house and pool back in order so we can live and and use the pool during the heat of the summer. I promise that I will be working on the comic, I just need to “prioritize” my time as a great talented woman always says. Plus I have to remind myself that it is “Ok to suck.”

Speaking of the lovely and talented Mur Lafferty, her incredible book Playing for Keeps is set to be released on Amazon.com on the 25th of August. I recommend that you check out her book, and support her. She is a very cool writer and very talented and I have to say she is my idol. She accomplishes so much and I am a bit envious of that.

Monkey Wrench from the album “The Colour and the Shape” by Foo Fighters

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Just wanted to give you all a quick update on me. Been working on my webcomic and devoting a lot of time over there. You can check it out at Thoughts of a Simple Man… Besides that just family vacation stuff and my new obsession Age of Conan have been occupying the rest of my time. Just don’t get mad, I haven’t forgot my blog, or my writing. I will be back in the swing of things once I get the comic going. So I’m alive and been working on a lot of stuff so hopefully you will all stick it out with me, I appreciate you all, I really do.

How Did I Google This? from the album “The Song Of The Day - January” by Beatnik Turtle

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I did it. Had my longest walk/run today. I’m still feeling pretty good and hopefully I will be able to keep it up.

Don’t Fade On Me from the album “Wildflowers” by Tom Petty

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Ok I’m doing it. I have finally broke down my walls of laziness and decided that I need to work out if I want to feel better about myself and be there for my family. To do this I bought the Nike + iPod system and will start running (well walking then running once I’m in better shape). I hope to hit these goals and have selected a workout schedule which should have me running about 30 minutes when I’m done. If that doesn’t help I don’t know what will. Watch here and in the side bar on the blog as I’ll be updating runs/walks and my progress on my goals.

Jump Start (Live) from the album “Catfish Rising” by Jethro Tull

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That is exactly what I have been feeling like lately, an old ghost. I am definitely feeling my age, all 39 years of it. My body is breaking down, my mind is not in the best of sorts and emotionally I’m a total mess. I was recently told by my doctor that my sugers (those of you who don’t know I’m a diabetic) are way out of control. I suspected as much. She put me on a new medicine which so far has been making me feel like crap. Physically I’m going down hill. Instead of losing weight, I’ve gained and my exercise routine is none existent. I have been feeling down in the dumps and completely lost.

I decided for myself he other day that I need to do something about it. I can’t sit back and allow my life to pass me by. I have two small children who need their father, wether they show it or not. I have a life, at least I’m living one. I want to make something of it. I’m sick and tired of not finishing what I start. I need to be able to finish. I need to make my life better, emotionally and physically. I need to get in a routine for exercise, and lose the weight. I need to get off my butt and reclaim my life, if for no one else then for myself. If I don’t, I won’t be an old ghost. I’ll be a young one.

Old Ghosts from the album “Stormwatch” by Jethro Tull

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