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It has been about a year since the last time I wrote anything. The joy I once felt putting pen to paper has been smashed out of me by the depression of real life issues. I have always been an organic writer, the words flowing to me from the ether or my muse, whatever you wish to call it. I have been blocked or the well has run dry. My creativity has left me, or has more likely been stiffled by all the crap in my real life. I know I need to fix this, but as yet I don’t know how. Hopefully you guys out there can help. So I’m asking you all how do you get past issues that affect your pursuit of your dream?

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Well it has been a LOOOONNNNGGGG time since I wrote one of these. Many things have changed since I have. One thing hasn’t, I’m still unemployeed. My health has gone to pot in the past 7 monthes and I have started on insulin injections. So far the insulin has done nothing to lower my sugars and everything to raise my stress levels. I have to nightly stick a needle in my abdomin. Not fun for the guy who hates needles. Mentally I’m about gone. Depression over not finding a job, failing my family, and an overall apathy toward my ability to be a good husband and father has settled in. I just don’t know what to do.

So there is my quick update as to the status of my life. Maybe I’ll do this more but probably not knowing myself as I do.

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I know I have been out of touch and not really updating anything, my blog or twitter. I’ve just been really stressed and not sure what way I’m going or what way I’ve been. As it turns out I’ve had a good reason to stress over the job front anyway.

I’ve had my suspicions that they would be closing our composing site for a while. The books were shrinking at a rapid rate and we were working fewer and fewer hours each week. That didn’t prepare me at all for what happened.

On Monday we found out that the whole company, Yes, you heard me right, THE WHOLE COMPANY was getting the axe. They were shutting down the publishing part of the business and concentrating on the .com part. That will put a ton of people out of work, including me. After nearly eight years I’m getting the axe. I know that I complained like hell about the politics and petty bull shit of this place, but this was the first job I got in design and I had worked myself into a nice comfortable place, free of most of the stress that working offers.

Now I have to move on, into the unknown and find my place. The biggest issue is to determine what I want to do with the rest of my life. I’m not young anymore, and the prospect of just excepting any job just to have money coming in makes me cringe, but I have to keep my family afloat. That is the most important part that my family can enjoy life as they have it, and not want for anything.

Geez, I just don’t know what the hell I’m going to do. It is so new that I am still numb from it and I’ve been escaping from it the past two days. I guess I just have to face it and move on, and pray that my life will get better. It will at least allow me to get out of this rut that I’m in.

Take Out the Trash from the album “The Else” by They Might Be Giants
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The alternate title of this post was, NaNoWriMo = FAIL!

That what I feel like anyway. I didn’t participate at all, no write-ins, no writing, nothing at all. That in my book = FAIL! I need to make myself get in the habit of writing. I have to, if just to preserve my sanity. I really need to find a local writers group, so I will have deadlines, even if they are self imposed, to share something each time we meet. I really need to get back in the habit. It was truly the only time I’ve been really happy with what I do when not working or caring for my family. Now my hours are spent gaming and socializing on the game. I will still game to relax but I need to have a part of my day spent writing as well. If I ever plan on someday “seeing my name on the spine of a book” I need to carve out the time. This means prioritizing things, I need my life to have more structure than it does. I will work on that and update you on my progress.

Also wanted to say that I have been playing with my recording software and an audio post (not sure I can call it a podcast) will be coming soon. Once I get some of my fiction done and polished I will be putting that here as well.

Take Out the Trash from the album “The Else” by They Might Be Giants

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Raw evil score: 71.11%

This in a very scary way does make sense. Though on second thought I would definitely kick the puppy.

Dirty Little Secret from the album “Move Along” by The All-American Rejects

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I know I haven’t been around for a while but I wanted to let you all know I am still here. Work has been stressful and my relationships have been confusing to say the least. I have been escaping into world of warcraft which I am sure doesn’t help and quite frankly my health just sucks. I did get something today which brightened my day and put a much needed smile on my face.

It was the picture that my daughter made while at daycare. I asked her teacher and she said that Emma wanted to make it for daddy because he has been so sad lately. I can’t say enough how much my little girl means to me and how miserable my life would be if she wasn’t in it everyday. It meant so much to me that I am still a little teary eyed over it. She is my hero, as much as I appear to be hers. I love you my little girl, so much.

My Hero from the album “The Colour and the Shape” by Foo Fighters

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It would seem that due to my sickness over the weekend I will not be doing NaNoWriMo this year. I hope to try and do some writing and to go to a few of the write ins and write more than I have been in a long time. I just think with all the stuff going on in my life and my general health issues that I can’t pace myself to actively complete NaNoWriMo this year. I’m sorry to all my friends if I am letting you down, I know that I am letting myself down. There is always next year.

Empty Spaces from the album “The Wall” by Pink Floyd

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Last night was our pumpkin carving night, and this year the kids both wanted Jack Skellington from The Nightmare Before Christmas, and me being a huge fan just couldn't say no. So here it is, our frightful Pumpkin King in all his glory. Enjoy.





This is Halloween from the album "The Nightmare Before Christmas" by Danny Elfman

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NaNoWriMo starts in 14 hours, and this year I am scared to death. I have no idea where my story is going to start, let alone end and forget the stuff in the middle. I really have no even faint plot idea, except that it is going to be a horror/thriller (which I have never tried before) and involve the supernatural. Guess my head will be trying to figure out what I am going to write about so I can get in at least 2000 words tomorrow. Wish me luck, I think this year I am going to need all the help I can get.

Welcome To My Nightmare from the album “Alice Cooper School’s Out And Other Hits” by Alice Cooper

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